Archive for the ‘ Life ’ Category

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15
Aug

Mama’s got a new tattoo

Chris’ brother is a tattoo artist, so when he was down (or up here at 7,000 ft.) this week, I finally got my ankle tattoo “finished”.

My last boyfriend, Charlie, and I had a pretty magical mushroom trip when we were 17.  It was just the two of us.  We’d camped beside a stream which fell down a waterfall into a pool below situated at the start of canyon, and we woke up drinking a gallon of grapefruit juice and chomping mushrooms.  The trip turned into a scene that was mixed between Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas and Natural Born Killers… and it felt as though we were in hell– but a good hell.  There were bugs crawling all over the river rocks, flies crawling over our skin, and birds swooping down on us.  The birds came from a cave near the start of the canyon, but the way they flew out of the cave in swarms made it look like they were bats.  By the time the birds made it to us and began swooping, they seemed to resemble swallows.  Through our teary eyes and the distracting flies buzzing about our heads, we decided that we better not try to solve the mystery of whether the birds were birds or if the bats were bats… so we took a bunch of pictures with a disposable camera.

When we got the film developed a week later, there wasn’t a single bird/bat in the sky, nor any flying out of the cave.  I showed the pictures to my dad and told him about our hallucination.  He said something that confirmed my suspicion, and really changed my outlook on the universe.  He said, “There are things that are in other dimensions we are unable to see in our day-to-day consciousness.  Sounds like the mushrooms opened your mind to another dimension!”

Ever since then I’ve been fascinated with the theories of metaphysics, and my belief system has become completely open-ended.

So… my tattoo represents the unknown, and the things we cannot see.

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14
Apr

Sick Apples & Avocado Birth

Sick Apple Art

Baby Avacado

Life & death in my home.

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23
Mar

Window on Arival, Ventana sobre la llegada

Sea Shell Photo by Finn_Ljungdahl

Pilar and Daniel Weinberg’s son was baptized on the coast. The baptism taught him what was sacred. They gave him a sea shell: So you’ll learn to love the water.They opened a cage and let a bird go free: So you’ll learn to love the air. They gave him a geranium: So you’ll learn to love the earth. And they gave him a little bottle sealed up tight: Don’t ever, ever open it. So you’ll learn to love mystery.

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El hijo de Pilar y Daniel Weinberg fue bautizado en la costanera. Y en el bautismo le enseñaron lo sagrado. Recibió una caracola: Para que aprendas a amar el agua. Abrieron la jaula de un pájaro preso: Para que aprendas a amar el aire. Le dieron una flor de malvón: Para que aprendas a amar la tierra. Y también le dieron una cajita cerrada: No la abras nunca, nunca. Para que aprendas a amar el misterio.

- Eduardo Galeano, from Walking Words

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21
Feb

Love According to Children

Carrots in Love

Photoby BellaMurphy

These are my favorites out of the collection Hagebutten gathered.

Actual children’s answers to the question “what is love?”

“When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.” – Billy, age 4

“Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.” – Chrissy, age 6

“If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,” – Nikka, age 6

“Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.” – Noelle, age 7

“Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.” – Tommy, age 6

“Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.” – Mary Ann, age 4

“When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn’t bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That’s love.” – Rebecca, age 8

“When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.” – Karen, age 7

“You really shouldn’t say ‘I love you’ unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.” – Jessica, age 8

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Jan

My Brain, The Universe

Our Brain the UniverseThanks:  Steph Neary

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12
Dec

A Universe of Probablility

photo:  flickr/loopfilmz

The idea of a deterministic universe is based on the philosophical theory of “deterministic systems”—that everything in the universe, what has and will occur, can be understood based on physical outcomes.

Under this belief, every action or cause produces a reaction, or effect, and every reaction in turn, becomes the cause of subsequent reactions. The outcome of such cascading events can theoretically show exactly how the system will exist at any moment in time. An example of this theory would be the simple interaction of three upright dominoes in line back-to-back. Once the first one falls, causing the second to fall, the final reaction of this small deterministic system is the third domino falling also. Small deterministic systems such as the domino effect are easily visualized but are linked to the rest of reality by cause and effect. For example, an outer force — say, someone’s finger — has to cause the first domino to fall, and the last domino may cause something else outside the system to happen — the laughter of a child, perhaps?

When creating theoretical models, systems are typically considered in isolation—external forces that don’t directly affect the dominoes are typically not taken into account when describing and analyzing a system.

In realty, no system exists in complete isolation. External forces which could affect the dominoes — a hurricane or tornado, for example — are causes that an analysis of the system might never not consider if we assume, for example, that a finger will tip the first domino. Again, theoretically, a wide range of such unexpected events and forces could be included in cause and effect calculations in a more complete deterministic system.

Deterministic philosophy is based on classic physics which scientists can use to describe all events which take place on a macroscopic level. Classic physics includes Newton’s law of motion, thermodynamics, the general theory of relativity, and the chaos theory. Systems studied under these theories can be complex, and events may be difficult to predict, but if the starting conditions were known in enough detail, then the outcomes in such systems could, theoretically be predicted.

Behaviorism, for example, is based on the psychological theory that behavior can be researched scientifically because inner mental states are considered to be deterministic, as opposed to free will. The universe conceived from a deterministic viewpoint was the general foundation for scientists until the end of the nineteenth century, when quantum mechanics were first theorized.

The theory of quantum mechanics supports — and depends upon — the idea of a “non-deterministic” universe, or “indeterminacy”. It casts everything as probabilities. If you have exact total knowledge of a system, then you can compute all possible outcomes of that system, thus forming a good probability distribution of how the new system will behave. Still, that doesn’t help you figure out what actually will happen, only what might happen, and how often.

If a particle is described by a wave passing through a narrow slit in the wall, like a water-wave passing through a narrow channel, the particle will diffract and its wave will come out in a range of angles. The narrower the slit is, the wider the diffracted wave and the greater the uncertainty in momentum afterward. Perhaps one of the most important characteristics of quantum mechanics theory tells us that the measurement of a particle’s momentum and position necessarily disturbs that particle’s momentum and position. Observing an event, in other words, changes the event.

States with both definite position and momentum do not exist in quantum mechanics, so it’s not the fault of the measurement equipment. It’s not a “bug” but a feature, and this characteristic of the subatomic level as we know it could conceivably be a scientific connection to the immeasurable spiritual world.

In the atomic and subatomic realm, objects don’t exist so much as they are a wave of possibilities, being everywhere at once until someone looks and collapses all the possibly into a definite location. In essence, until observation, everything is fuzzy—these “things” appear to exist as energy and then collapse into particles upon observation. This implies that nothing is really solid; “reality” doesn’t take form until we observe it.

By understanding that matter is made up of molecules, which are made up of atoms, which are made up of subatomic particles, which are made up of energy — and that energy doesn’t take form until the point of observation, then observation determines solidity, suggesting that there is an important significance in our own thoughts and intentions. Our minds appear to influence the fundamental building blocks of our own realities.

We can no longer exclude ourselves from the creation of our lives, because we influence our own reality.

Read more about quantum physics:

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4
Nov

Sprouting my Avocado Seed

Two days ago I decided that I needed to sprout some babies, so I went and bought an avocado [ate enchaladas], removed the pit, and started that bad boy.  I have about 2-6 weeks of waiting before anything green pops out.  Grow one with me!  Here’s how it goes…

Remove the large seed from the center of the fruit and wash it in cool water.

Insert 3 to 4 toothpicks (or pins) into the sides of the seed — about halfway up the pit.

The broad end of the seed is the bottom. The pointed end is the top.  SO, suspend the seed in a glass of water, flat bottom should be down with 1/4 of the seed resting in water.  It should be in a nice, warm area, and out of direct sunlight.

The seed should sprout within a few weeks. Keep adding water to maintain the initial water level, and keep the water clear.  If it doesn’t sprout within 2 months, discard the seed and begin another.  You have to be lucky… only about 1 in 5 seeds will sprout, so maybe try a few at a time!

The roots are usually the first to emerge from the seed, the stem appearing later.  When the stem is about 6 inches long, cut it back to three.  When the leaves and begun to sprout again and the root system has become well developed (at least 2-3 inches), plant it; the seed should be half exposed in healthy soil.

Place the potted seed in the sunlight, and give it frequent but light waterings.  The water should stay moist, but if the leaves start turning yellow, let the soil dry out for a few days (you’ve over-watered it!).  When the stem is about 12 inches high, cut it back to 6 to encourage new branches.  Don’t expect your tree to grow fruit… not only does it take years and years, but many times the avocados taste bad.  See my baby, click here!

Read more about avacado trees here:

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Nov

Halloween

Very fun Halloween, but I forgot to take pictures of my Punk-Rock Cruella Devil costume!!

Violet Sol and I at Steamworks for Halloween lunch with my brother & sister-in-law

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2
Oct

Tattoo

I went into Your Flesh Tattoo at 4pm yesterday to see what Roger had drawn up for me.  I’m a really really picky, demanding girl (in case you didn’t know), so I was expecting that I’d want to make so many changes to the image that I wouldn’t be getting tattooed that day…. BUT, turns out I picked a really great artist to do my first major tattoo who knows how to pull things out of his ass and make them work!  After, oh, maybe 3 hours of laying there on his table in agony (I’m a big baby), I checked out the sucker and all the pain was WELL worth it.  I’m very happy that Roger was the one to make my first real tattoo amazing.

But now it still hurts and I’m sleep deprived.